Not The Homecoming Queen
Hi. My name is Tori Davis.
For the longest time, I have wanted to create a blog. But QUESTIONS, oh those questions of self doubt are STRONG. Am I interesting enough? Will people care what I have to say? Why would anyone want to follow me? I started to look into other blogs of women who were also in their late 20s /early 30s, married, had a kid, and you know what I realized??? THEY WERE ALL SUPERMODEL THIN AND GORGEOUS!!! So a part of me thought, well shoot! I do NOT look like that! I WANT to be that! But then I realized, these annoyingly perfect women made me feel alone in my experiences. I wondered how many others felt like that... After thought, I don't want to be them. I want to be me and be a voice that others can relate more to. After all, if you look like that, how tough can life really be? Sure you might have insecurities and doubt, but let's face it. If you are supermodel thin and I read your article of how hard it is to look at yourself sometimes, I would say "This bitch.......". Just kidding. I'm not that rude. Also, for the record, of course I understand that no matter what you look like, life can be tough. Trials and tribulations don't know size or what you look like. So please, don't misunderstand what I am trying to say.... It's like asking the Homecoming Queen to understand what a wallflower feels. Do you get it now???
So, with alllll that said. Here I am. Let me be someone you can relate to. This is me.
I am 30 years old. I am married to an awesome guy and we have a beautiful, little 1 yr old girl named Penelope (Penny for short). I am not perfect in any way. I constantly feel overwhelmed with how my body has changed since getting married and having a child (if I was a model, I'd be considered plus size). My relationship with my husband is steady but we could be better lovers. I am STILL trying to figure out, not only who I am as a mother and wife, but who I am in general.
I wasn't the Homecoming Queen, not even a consideration for the title. BUT, I have found MANY things to be thankful for and I believe your path takes you where YOU want to take it. It helps to have a tribe along the way, though. So walk with me. Welcome to my world.
For the longest time, I have wanted to create a blog. But QUESTIONS, oh those questions of self doubt are STRONG. Am I interesting enough? Will people care what I have to say? Why would anyone want to follow me? I started to look into other blogs of women who were also in their late 20s /early 30s, married, had a kid, and you know what I realized??? THEY WERE ALL SUPERMODEL THIN AND GORGEOUS!!! So a part of me thought, well shoot! I do NOT look like that! I WANT to be that! But then I realized, these annoyingly perfect women made me feel alone in my experiences. I wondered how many others felt like that... After thought, I don't want to be them. I want to be me and be a voice that others can relate more to. After all, if you look like that, how tough can life really be? Sure you might have insecurities and doubt, but let's face it. If you are supermodel thin and I read your article of how hard it is to look at yourself sometimes, I would say "This bitch.......". Just kidding. I'm not that rude. Also, for the record, of course I understand that no matter what you look like, life can be tough. Trials and tribulations don't know size or what you look like. So please, don't misunderstand what I am trying to say.... It's like asking the Homecoming Queen to understand what a wallflower feels. Do you get it now???
So, with alllll that said. Here I am. Let me be someone you can relate to. This is me.
I am 30 years old. I am married to an awesome guy and we have a beautiful, little 1 yr old girl named Penelope (Penny for short). I am not perfect in any way. I constantly feel overwhelmed with how my body has changed since getting married and having a child (if I was a model, I'd be considered plus size). My relationship with my husband is steady but we could be better lovers. I am STILL trying to figure out, not only who I am as a mother and wife, but who I am in general.
I wasn't the Homecoming Queen, not even a consideration for the title. BUT, I have found MANY things to be thankful for and I believe your path takes you where YOU want to take it. It helps to have a tribe along the way, though. So walk with me. Welcome to my world.
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